FrEaK aNd GeEks

In the show freaks and geeks it shows the true stereotypes of nerdy huys and that all the watch is star trek and have a bully. The freaks are to cool for school and dont fit in to the conformity of being a high school student. Everyday I am confronted by different diverse groups the exact same groups in the show. Today in gym we were doing a team building activity because gym teachers are tired of students being in cliques/groups and not branching out to meet new kids. Their method of trying to make the students interact is annoying because we havent become comfortable enough to talk with new people. Just like in freaks and geeks the main charcter girl tries to be with the freak crowd but doesnt really fit in, that is how I feel everyday in gym. The main character forces herself to become them just as the gym teachers force us all to be friends. Becoming friends or talking with one another is hard just like it is for the geeks when they are confroned by a bully because they are always stutering. Being forced to become friends with others is wrong just like the guidance counselor forces the main girl to go back to the academic decathalon team, even though she is trying to change and be more herself.

Awkward...Silence...Awkward

Silence is it Awkward?
Silence is not awkward because nothing is normal. As I was told by my best friend, define what normal is. Is normal being a stereotype such as a prep, jock or loner. Is normal doing the same as everyone else. Is normal not being able to think for yourself. There is no normal in society because society has become so abnormal that normal is exstinct. Society is abnormal because where I go to high school you can be a goth kid but also be really nice like my some of my friends. Also I have other friends that are the "smart kids" but don't act the way as the stereotype makes them out to be. No one or nothing is awkward because in the end awkward isn't awkward it isn't even normal it is just a part of life some people like and others think of it as annoying. Some think of it as annoying because people try to fill the silence with talk but the talk either makes it funny or just makes it worst. For example, at least once a week at the lunch table my friends have a weird silence and one of my friends just tries to talk to make it better but we all end up bursting out in laughter because we are in our comfort zones with each other. "Awkward Silences" are always the best when in your comfort zone, but if they aren't it makes you feel annoyed and uncomfortable. Real silence is so rare now a days because someone is on a cell phone, facebook, watching tv, listening to music, driving a car, using a computer or other electronics and appliances that have made society "noisy". There is always the "noise" of I need to check this application or call this person or drive here. In the end we end up not listening to society cause we never can "rest" our ears from the "noises of life". We have become trained not to listen, not to feel, not to be anything but noisy! No one can listen even if they think they are in silence. What is silence any more? Does silence even exist?

Who Am I?

I am...
-junior in high school -a sister, daughter & a cousin
-confused about life -a crazy friend
-a procrastinator -truthful
-rock n' roll lover -basketball & softball player
-lover of awkward moments -lover of sports

My goal in life is to decide what I want to do with my life such as a career, where to go to college, where to live, who I want to become. I know I want to do a career either involving computers, social work/therapist, business, music or sports. I want to learn to play the drums and guitar. My biggest influences that will help me ralong my way to reach my goals are my family. I am me.